Anger with God
I have spent a majority of my life angry at God. I have cussed him out so many times I couldn't even count. When I draw close to him, he is no where to be found. This makes me extremely angry, to the point of uncontrollable outbursts. Sadly, these days it has been a daily occurrence. The problem is I have a vision for my life and God has a vision for my life. To my sore displeasure, God wins out every time. My sin also plays a big part in the day to day misery that I find myself in. This is straight out of the Bible. If a Christian obeys God then their state of being will be joy. There will be moments of misery and happiness mixed in, but over all it will be joyous. If a Christian disobeys God and lives for the world, their over all state will be misery. Misery usually results in anger. Anger is a reaction to unfavorable circumstances. When someone's life falls apart, it is easiest to simply point their finger at God and say "look what you did to me". All this is, is shifting blame to someone other than ones self. Blaming yourself for your problems is the the best policy for solving them and moving past them. It is so hard though to admit when we are wrong. I always want to point at everyone but me for my problems. The blame game makes us feel good, we are the victims of some ones evil schemes. We could never be to blame for all the things wrong in our lives. This leads to feeling powerless and at the mercy of the the world. This will become our reality if we allow it. This powerlessness leads to intense rage and anger. My natural inclination is to blame God for all that has happened to me. This is not the reality of the matter, God had to chasten me for my disobedience.
6 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
7 If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
8 But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.
9 Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?
10 For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.
11 Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.
The sins that I committed against God had to be dealt with. Proverbs 3:11 says-My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction. When the Lord comes down on you, he hits hard and it hurts real bad too. This is not an actual beating, it could be anything that causes suffering in your life, but God has been known to have others physically beat his children. The problem is, we look at God the wrong way. We think he is trying to hurt us and take what is ours. In actuality, he has something better planned for us. I look back at the life I once lived, that I thought was so great and I am shocked I lived that way. All my friends were hard core into drugs and alcohol. That was my whole life. I had grand dreams for my future, where I was the star of the show (pride).
Proverbs 16:18- Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
Man I fell hard, anger and bitterness took over my life. I was ignorant of the ways of God and was careless with my life. That is why it is so shocking now, that I would have done those things. I took out my frustration on God, when he was just trying to help. He got me away from all those guys and that old life. He has me at a place now where he can use me and bless me.
Another problem I have is praising God on the mountain top and not in the valley. If you can praise God when everything has fallen apart you show your love and faith in him. God may test you along the way to see what the relationship is made out of. Are you just using God then throwing him away? Circumstances may arise from that, that are less than desirable. Praising God when you are down and out is crucial in your Christian life. I try to remember this, but often anger gets the best of me.
Psalm 22:3- But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.
God inhabits the praise of his people. Here is a wild idea, instead of getting angry at god, praise him instead. This is completely contrary to human nature. When we get mad, we make sure someone pays for it. We have to train ourselves not to do that. Praying to God will help in this matter. This concept could also apply to dealing with anger in general. Do not get angry, look at it as a valuable lesson and thank God for it. Unfortunately, I have conditioned myself to have rage meltdowns, that are very embracing. I really need to work on this. I believe that through obedience and prayer God will change me. The person I have become is something out of a nightmare, but God can fix all of it. If I give god time and live in obedience, God will change me and bless me. We all must have patients with God, when we say jump, he does not say "how high". He does things in his own time. The sooner we accept that, the easier things will get. Pray for me if you can, anger is a major problem in my life.
I hope you enjoyed this article. If you are not a Christian, I invite you to get saved now. Tomorrow may be to late. To get saved all you have to do, is admit that you are a sinner and that Jesus Christ died for your sins. The only way to take away sins is with the pure shed blood of Jesus Christ. Good works can not take away sins. If they could, then Jesus Christ died in vain. Jesus died, was buried, and rose from the dead as payment for all sins. Once you believe that, you are saved forever. You did nothing to earn it and you can do nothing to lose it.
8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.
I Corinthians 15
1 Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand;
2 By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain.
3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures;
4 And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.